Day: January 16, 2023

  • Interrogation

    Is it wrong to go to any college for art or music if you aren’t the next Michelangelo?

  • ^IQ^?

    Is Cleveland not socially intelligent enough for me, mostly. I was advised by the police to get out of the city because of the danger. I may not have enough money to do that until over a year! but it is possible if I get money from Lejeune, soon.

    So, where to? Maybe, I shouldn’t wait to go to Germany, though people try to tell me it’s really bad. I have to contact an “embassy” here, still. I know there are jobs for English speakers, but I don’t know about English speaking communities or living. I want to learn German, too, and started. years ago. I guess I will go for Freiburg so I can see the orchestra before it falls apart, as members get older. I’ve been following this orchestra online since 2016, every day, mostly. It’s a loving city but doesn’t hit the spot and probably isn’t for everyone necessarily, close to France and Switzerland/Italy. It’ll do, but I love the orchestra, though I don’t always fit in. Nice people there, too, reminds me a little of Orlando, where I lived for years with my parents, and Cleveland where I am now. I agree it’s a bit “day to day” in feel and that orchestra bustling about and getting to travel the world except the US etc. It’s like WWI, they ignore a challenge and pick sides. I just learned about WWI, seems like a normal fight, unlike WWII, but people die and get hurt physically.

    People here think if I reacted physically like stomping my foot a little when mad that that’s it I’m a danger, and it’s like no one notices they’re all bad people to me and they even “started it.” Anyone is mean to me, it seems, and no one deserves to dominate me, for it. I’m a good person. I shouldn’t be tormented because my dad was “ticked off” I flunked college, like it was my fault my high schools did not prepare me or my junior high schools. Other people listened, unfortunately, and still do to this day, all seeming to claim they don’t actually believe in it. I get tormented for thinking of bad words, too, just some day to day vocabulary in this kind of “day and age.” My dad really went down on me to be that way when I was upset and posted about it on my blog or something, maybe was just mad cursing but not illegally, and people were being illegally mean to me… They want me to believe these things and “point fingers at” me if I don’t depending on if I’ve met anyone since in these past years or anything. So, I am not mean and dangerous, and no one would attack me for that reason since I don’t do that.

  • Supper

    I have more leftover spaghetti.

  • New College Dreams “If”

    > Baroque Violin (“Early Music” / “Historical Performance”) ๐ŸŒŸ
    > Studio Art (Painting > Acrylic/Traditional) ๐Ÿ˜‡

    > Physics ๐ŸŒˆ
    > Math (“Mathematics”) ๐ŸŽจ
    > Chemistry โค

    > Swimming (Fall) ๐Ÿง
    > Tennis (Spring) ๐Ÿ‘‘

    The science and math minors are to supplement my interest in research in art and music. ๐Ÿ˜

  • Just Got Home and…

    I had 1 of my $1/$2 chocolate cake-like dessert from a box of 10, 2 heart cakes in one pack.

    I took, like, a full shower, hair mask and Bath & Body Works!

    I tidied up my apartment pretty well. I have some bags and it looks hard to dance in, though, now. I could move some things a bit. … Well, I took care of that!

    I went through my home and purse/bag planner.

    I have some classical music on. I have some water.

    Work is great, doesn’t take long to get there. I ate my free meal after work, a double burger, small fries, and coke (Coca-Cola.)

    I put my laundry for tomorrow in and have to work it.

    I have to clean some cookingware in the kitchen etc.

    I have a little trash to take out.

    Pretty much done.

    I wish I had money to shop, waiting for some, and my younger brother seems afraid to send me any of mine now I am on my own. Weird. It’s Iike I only have what’s in my pocket now, it’s not right. I thought my dad left that money to me or it got leftover already somehow. I mean, I just got a job and to be safe they aren’t paying me for 3 weeks, so I won’t leave because I’m new. I didn’t know! I think I looked it up online. I have a few things I can return that may make it by the end of this month, some things too late.

    I guess I’ll post online, need to wash my uniform for tomorrow and eventually cook a meal, probably spaghetti and meatballs. I only have like $100 for the rest of this month, some got taken away somehow for something. So, it goes to food. I’m stocked for breakfast at home, big breakfast kinda, and some suppers, maybe 5 suppers at least. It might cost around $40 for the next week. I have just enough maybe, but I may need to buy female products, not sure what else. My female cycle may be rather short and light, since I took that pill, but a tampon is not enough alone, I wear both a tampon and pad on heavier days, like 3 days possibly. I found a few things at Dollar stores, but I am trying to lay off going there until I have some money. I’ll have, like, $600+ when I do get my first check! I want to pay back my debts, for one thing, $5.6K maybe. Oh, and I do have some more credit coming in for now, $29, so.

  • Breakfast

  • Late Generation X Germans

    They behaved so nicely and were so impressive.

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