I’m not good enough for the Late Baby Boomer lady from Europe I’m supposedly supposed to have a “relationship” with.
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Why can’t we stop people?
I was gonna wait, but Cleveland turned out to be a real problem.
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Cut Myself
I was cutting some bigger/wide bell peppers. It sliced under. I have a bandaid on to keep it from bleeding. My left thumb on the inside, the top part. I heal slowly, probably those derned (darn) pills. No one gives a care about my life, and so this happened. I was tired, I can’t make enough money. My parents died and I am no longer supported enough, and I did well in school and behaved.
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Love? Cancel Culture!
The people monitoring me in private won’t let me feel love, and instead they are cautious that I feel any love. They want my life to thrive on clinically mental attention and haphazard and out of place “reminders,” and I don’t know if anyone will be “punished” for doing this to me or “retributed,” if they indeed do wrong…
Other people are constantly being emotionally fondled, though underprivileged generation-wise. Of course, I’m a good person, and many people seem not to be okay.
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I noticed…
…Other people can be “mean” or mad but I can’t be critical or at all harsh or something, even just in private, like it’s a threat. I’m not shy, but I’m not inappropriate. I’m a good person.
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How am I worse than others?
I keep being told I’m in trouble.
I was considered all the best behaved growing up. I still am.
It’s like I’m not allowed to do things others do, socially!
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Cutesy
It seems cute that a Late Baby Boomer lady from Europe I’m supposedly supposed to have a “relationship” with is very cute, dealing with a problem made by me, clearly because of others. She has a good idea and has had enough. She gets stimulated, and why wouldn’t anyone? She takes whoever she has and arranges it.
So, I was wondering why other people don’t!
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Kencko
My Kencko powdered fruits and vegetables (without the water) shipped and will probably be here next week.
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Racism
It’s all about defaming people with any non-White blood with winning features etc. and glorifying over them full Whites who are lacking in necessary winning features.
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New Audio of Me Playing Violin
Added to “Me Playing Violin” listed on the right side of this blog.
It’s a so-so recording.
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New Video of Me Singing
It’s so-so, shows me singing in a more comfortable “register.”
Added to “Me Singing” listed on the right side of this blog.
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“I will not ‘be quiet.’”
Racially, only Whites and Blacks participate. People like me have it the worst, and I’m 1/2 Dutch Chinese-Indonesian. People don’t let Asians complain yet allow both Whites and Blacks to.
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I remember when it was all.
Not too many years ago, people started all getting cell phones. Before that, people were more real. Now, I feel loss in a sea of gadgets, with uncertainty about life and the world.
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Kencko
I just got Kencko, 2 packs a day, like $2.49 per pack, regular cost is $150/month, I think. It’s this cute bottle with packs of powder/dried vegetables and fruit, without the water! You shake it up with fresh water! It may be 16 oz., I don’t know, we’ll see! There are lots of vitamins, and there’s 14 kinds.
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England and Italy
If Germany is very related to England and seems to have a thing with Italy, they should be fine because Italy is a mainstream culture, not a minor European abode. If it is worldly, Italy is open and probably experienced. They seem to already have an affinity with the countries with languages that sound similar to German. So, this should be no problem. Also, I think Italians are related to the other Europeans, by blood, rather than Middle Easterners, but this information is not readily available.
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“That’s a wrap!”
Are mentally ill people people who didn’t live out their dreams in art or music? Mental health professionals like to make their clients, maybe especially youth, do art and sometimes there is music somewhere. I guess other people, who may not be critically mentally ill, are too old and just want their kids and try to encourage them to do art and music.
A lot of normal people just wish they could act, to sing and dance too maybe.
It seems ballerinas and people from dance team just want to be nurses and live the life and have babies young.
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“You’re never too old to play the piano.”
Even health professionals believe classical music is to be done on the side, having studied it in their school days, now can play.
Imagine when art and music were invented, of course, artists and musicians had started older, or, at least, people don’t all start as toddlers or small children. Some people try to start things as adults, and many thrive in crafts.
Be one of the first to make it? Take your liberty/freedom, and start drawing. I don’t know what it’s like not to be “able to draw,” as I wanted to be an artist since my parents gave me an easel at age 3.
You’re a deterrent to society if you believe no one should do art or music and that it’s too late to do it at all. I myself did more crafts than art, as a kid. I did more drawing and not painting.
I think it’s more about style, as well as effort, to find something achievable and do it right.
I’ve heard it’s easier to learn piano before a single line solo instrument. I wound up learning to read music before piano, even, and did piano before violin. I’ve done keyboard instruments and violin in college.
Lots of youth do pencil portraits of people, like movie actors, and post them on DeviantArt. Asians have Anime, too.
About learning piano, many people learn guitar, with special programs, as teenagers and probably adults.
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“Way of Thinking” / Disposition
It is not a wise idea to say someone is better than someone else.
It seems as though film directors aren’t really “better” than people who study actual performance.
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The Ones Who “Know the Way”
It must be an emotional experience to be a classical musician, and only privileged generations know what that’s like.
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Who’s who?
How can a psychiatrist/psychologist have a psychiatric/psychological disorder, if s/he knows what s/he is doing?
It seems typical for a musician to have schizophrenia.
It seems typical for an artist to have autism.
I desire to be a social and artistic personality, but I’m a psychological personality.
