People who play music think I am below them, still now.
It doesn’t matter in a way, but they believe I am subhuman.
If you think I am inadequate, it’s because I want to be fresh for something worth it and prepared and prepped still though. If I seem less emotional, it is because I have received little to no affection.
Found a sales company that likes me that doesn’t require cold calls.
People wanna say I’m not a real musician because I can sing.
When Germans are excited about getting stimulated, people take it as “a sign” and want to “let it all out.”
I returned something for $80, refund to my credit card within 2 weeks.
I may return 3 less expensive things tomorrow after work.
I went to the gym. I jogged on the treadmill for 30 minutes. I took a class for my lower body for 30 minutes, and it really helped to have a trainer!
I’m heating up the oven and heating up leftover frozen pizza, Tombstone, the supreme a little weird for some reason the crust it seems.
I work at 10:45 AM and am waking up at maybe 5 AM and leaving by 8 AM. I have to get breakfast. I work fewer longer days right now and will probably have Asian food at the mall and a frappe. That may total around $15.
I applied for some sales job but not like a life insurance sales person selling from home. Like $50K/year and up.
I also applied for things like cooking for $15/hour, until I get a higher paying job.
Someone took my fame but may not be compatible with me, according to her? (in some regard or whim.)
I was questioned for being into someone younger than someone but find they are into them, too.
Now, I just have to set up my violin.
I may go to the gym tomorrow, treadmill and if there’s a group class.
how others treated me.
My aunts. I wonder if I am thought to have done something wrong and not work out.
Do you think my dad was insecure because he married an Asian lady that other people of his race would beat him, still?
I think his younger sisters follow him.
Why are people advertising that Germans are all that, but when a Norwegian finds something important it can all succumb as nothing, to make them feel pleasure as though as a baby?
I applied to work with patients at the hospital or with the Navy.
Even if I was better in some way, people would just be jealous of me rather than be my friend. “It’s a viscous cycle.”
Who really won, in my generation, the ones who were wrong and therefore did not have to be given attention anyway, to plot against me?
No one wants me unless I’m considered a failure of my generation and tackily paired up with adults who act like they’re not cool to set an example for me.
But I want to do the real thing in Europe.
Are they … attractive?
I got it, for $8.63 on sale.
I added a link to “Ballet” in the 4th column.
Lots of Water
Are people just watching me to ruin my life, instead?
In Germany thinks it’s their business to ruin my life! or the US.
You’re just waiting to pretend I’m in trouble.
I wish I had more room for art and art kits.
I hope to move out in several months.
I finished my McDonald’s!
Like cooking near home that pays $15/hour.
“It’s been awhile…”
McDonald’s.
I moved the link to my film/board account to the top section of this blog.
I rearranged some of the things on the columns of this blog, moved the Search box and put a Latest Comment section on the last/5th column.
I’m trying to lower them gradually, so I’m not always tired.
I’m making a cheese pizza pocket, maybe 1/2 hour.
Someone still has to get their laundry out of the apartment washing machine.
I want to rest/sleep, for work, tidy up, and practice violin etc.
I’m waiting for the laundry to be free, maybe in 2 hours?
$92.96 (including the tip)
I just got them.
I just spoke with my caseworker.
I just got some groceries for like $90, some to last a long time.
I am gonna throw my clothes in the apartment laundry.
I want to return some stuff, if possible, sometime, like my broken laundry machine/s, small ones for an apartment room.
Gramma, what a ray of sunshine to shut out!
Gramma, died today, unable to move? like my mom December 2018. This Gramma was my dad’s mom. My dad also died, early 2021. I moved Up North where he and my Gramma are from. My Gramma was in Florida with my aunt, at times.
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It looks very funny the way some Germans keep talking over one another to others to make a point, like when it comes to Asians and sorting them out, contradicting themselves.
…because I’m half. So, does any mix count as White if I don’t?
People not so good in some way are latching onto a Late Baby Boomer lady from Europe I’m supposedly supposed to have a “relationship” with but are below me.
My happiness for something else, someone else’s “so called” happiness against me?
A best friend?
My aunts and younger brother are with my Gramma, the closest family she has, in Florida..
My Gramma was a sad lady ready for the adventure of life, like my mom, who also passed away.
But “no comment.”
Can you plan to “put yourself out there?”
…do you expect attention, affection, and great pleasure/stimulation, etc.?
Off tomorrow, laundry!
I am heating up the peppers and will put in the 4 beer Brats in a bit.
Is it ethnically and successfully racist?
I got to traffic the lines for Santa Claus photos some of the time!
I’m washing my laundry.
I’m making a small pizza.
I fixed a typo in my last post.
Some people make statements like they’re ready to conquer other people.
Some people have great excpectations active compared to others about certain things in life.
If my life is involved, shouldn’t it be important?…
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How did I start off as someone I’m not, guaranteed in trouble, seemingly the exact opposite!!!
It might be overly meditated people born between my parental generation and me, not “a good example.”
It lets you get away with things…
I trimmed the featured posts!
I lived in the oldest city in the US, and the standard museum featured some of the city’s art! It had hot spots of nudity, sculptures!
Ripley’s was of history and the world, the museum in different places in the US or world about very weird and very scary things and sensations!
Someone thinks someone else thinks they’re them but isn’t and so sent her off to be fixed, so she could have all the pleasure, or some story.
I like to think I’m someone different, but they sometimes seem to just want to put me through things maybe they would go through or something else, anyway someone I’m not.
I sneezed cheerios and threw up, having Japanese before work today.
I did a 5 minute exercise, too, progress…
I already took a shower, fixed my hair, and put on makeup!
I work at I think 2:45 til 7:30. I should leave at 11 AM, and it’s 8:47 AM.
I woke up around 7, alarm at 8.
I may play violin and get ready to perform, at church this or next Sunday maybe and maybe at the mall with Santa, who invited me. I just have to ask security.
I deleted a recent post.
Work today at 3 til like 7.
When people like born around 1960 pass judgment, do they know that no one, including them, has much to offer, on some level they decided to “go by?”
Maybe people in the arts learn things like anything, but it’s still fun.
Are people really impressed by anything, including being able to read and play music?
What was your childhood like? and the formative years, youth, young adult, etc.?
If you think I am inadequate, it’s because I want to be fresh for something worth it and prepared and prepped still though. If I seem less emotional, it is because I have received little to no affection.
