I did like it and needed to get in shape but didn’t get to do much.

Other people don’t feel like starting the piano.

I woke up awhile ago and am getting ready to prepare tortellinis.

I am glad I get paid, work Wednesday and Disability Thursday probably.

I am sipping some lemonade. I had a little of those Halloween candies.

I have a few returns, not sure if I’ll do them maybe like next week.

I’ve had ballet on in the background on my laptop.

I am excited to start saving money and hopefully keep up a sales job. I need to practice violin every day, if possible.

I have some tidying up to do but not too bad, wash my clothes for work Tuesday-Saturday. I work roughly 3-7. I usually get time for church, but I don’t always make it. It’s fun if you’re well fed. I wish I had other snacks. I saw someone eating a dry meat stick. Sometimes, they iced coffee. I have my coffee at home, low sugar for the coffee. It’s iced.

So, my tortellinis are cooking. I guess I will tidy up and shower … I may do violin and then laundry or something.

Some people do want a word or so with me or end.

Is orchestras getting giddy just a way of getting it together, and people who can do other things are still okay?

I guess some of Europe says too bad too sad, for poor Americans.

Americans fight too much, just sitting there.

Hopefully, I can still play violin/someday.

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Ballerinas seem to be able to go pro right out of high school or hopefully during!

Many quit at a fresh age.

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It seems that a lot of people who’d love the attention that ballet gives like a classically trained musician get sucked into other schools of dance that seem more showy and streamlined.

I showered and washed the dishes up to the silverware since my back hurt a little, I looked back today at the bottom of my coat/jacket, etc. I’ve been told I have a good back, one that has carried much backpack, in school.

I finished that last Mountain Dew of a special fruit flavor, my 2nd tonight. I used a lot of energy I think working.

I’m started my beer brats and bell peppers before my shower and now am having them, 3!

I think a leg has something like a big not so bad bruise, maybe the sugar. I did that last Mountain Dew so I would not drink like 2 or 3 more cups of lemonade unsatisfied. I will probably have lemonade as dessert..

…but what is up with people from 1958 rattling the cart?

I had to pay $20 to get back home since I got a late bus.

I have off tomorrow but work Tuesday-Saturday roughly mostly around 3-7.

I will keep my sales job or was considering being a cop. I still have my dreams in violin in classical music in an orchestra in Germany or something, ideally though. Oh, I mean the sales job that’s new, not the terminating job I have now, with Santa, Christmas photos.

My legs didn’t get tired at work, today! I had a really long day the day before, since someone didn’t show for 2 days, no reason why, disappeared.

I’m on my 2nd bottle of special fruity Mountain Dew, unfortunately, one in the morning, one now. I may have supper, excited about tomorrow being off.

I have to get my December bus pass probably December 1st, Thursday. I work til the 24th. About 2 1/2 weeks of work so far, 4 left. Tonight was busy.

People keep saying bad things about selling from home part time. My taxi driver said he did that and retail his whole life. He didn’t have a straight answer! like maybe it was for some people. I think it would be better than being a cop if I want to learn violin and German. Only part time, too! and then get $100K/year. I need to look into it more. They said sell to 4 families/people a week to make that much. I guess you can cut off once you’ve done that much or just keep going or to whatever end. It’s a dream come true, from home and part time. I need to get licensed, $49 with them. It seems challenging. I wonder if I’ll have to wait til this job at the mall a ways away is over. I may work at like McDonald’s or Popeye’s! to pay bills til I can sell, like I told them.

I have a bit to clean up. Maybe, tomorrow will be laundry, too. I don’t seem to have too much to tidy up for bed. I may shower and eat. My Mountain Dew is almost gone. I may have some lemonade after. It’s a good thing I got a hold of some groceries. I don’t have much money left.

You know, this soda is making me happy. I wasn’t tired, today.

I really want to make saving money a priority, so no eating out. Though, I can get groceries I like. I don’t get too much frozen prepared food, anymore.

I have some things I could return, though it is quite a hassle.

I hope to keep up violin practicing and am happy I can play at church when I’m ready. I think they needed me soon, though. I could get like up to $300 back of returning stuff if I do, maybe more with a slight possibility. That would be a nice help paying bills next month now. I also have plenty of contact lenses. I have like at least 2 extra boxes, 1 of which is coming.

I don’t know about my lease. I just gotta keep working. I dunno I could do both sales and a steady job, wait til I made some money selling gradually but at an accelerating pace? A guy on a bus in a nice area said he worked at McDonald’s, telling this other guy. He just makes the food and gets paid well, no talking to people. He seemed like he was in his late 40s or 50s. The other guy I think gets assistance for mental illness. I said how people at work before cut me off being happy. He said same with him so he was unhappy on purpose! Aha ha ha!

I should research jobs but kinda already know that people sell or are a cop if they don’t have a degree and want significant money, think selling brings in more for people. Some people say it’s a lotta work, but it’s for people without college degrees! It sorta is a dream job if it’s work from home part time still may $100K.

I guess I’ll have some fun, do some chores, shower and eat maybe, for now.

I had a pizza Lunchable before work. I bought a wrap at a gas station and had a little snack pack with cheese and nuts, good idea and tasted nice. I had water. I brought lemonade to work. I have cold water and ice waiting for me at home! and I am at home!

I sprayed my laundry. I didn’t get to sleep much 2 nights ago and worked 2 shifts to sub someone MIA (“missing in action.”)

I will probably take a full shower, with the Bath & Body Works beach set, with perfume/spray.

It’s only 11:52 AM. I missed church and choir this morning. I should be ready by 1:30 PM.

I have to leave to catch a bus at 2 PM. It’s 11:44 PM. I should leave by around 1:30 or 1:45 PM.

Therefore, I am an adult and “in the business.” It’s all from here. I just need a different/new project.

My dad endorsed me on LInkedIn, and now he’s dead.

I know people who don’t sing or who can just act are really excited and sound more emotional when they start to sing, and I want to hear things like this.

When I was young, it was all about if you drank alcohol or not. It wasn’t 2 things, 1, sometimes.

I was a part of reality!

Honey Nut Cheerios

2 Eggs

Low Sugar Iced Coffee

I just got my Instacart+ order within like an hour fo $2 extra. I’m sipping my lemonade and have my soda in the freezer and refrigerator.

I got a bunch of soda and lemonade, plus 3 meals of beer brats with bell peppers.

I know it’s late, 2:16 AM and I have to wake up at 5 or 6 for work at 10:45.

I noticed people.

There was this girl with one of those German-looking moms, here in the US. The girl looked so cute and perfect with bleached hair, maybe brown eyes, pale. Her mom was probably blonde with coarse hair. Her hair was very straight and smooth and thick. It was in a ponytail and probably spiky. She was on the shorter side but maybe taller than me, so maybe 5’3”? She had a baby. Her mom was like, “But … you wanted one?” like she respected her more than her baby.

After a musical, a floutist came out with her family. She had short, spiky, dyed red hair, dark red. Her husband was around her height, slumped over and blonde, looked like a fun professor of the day. The daughter, the only child there at least, was just a little shorter with smooth probably naturally mostly white hair. She was talking animatedly. It was like their family did the right thing and was accepted.

…So, that is to say, my family and I were not as accepted, after all, just because of race. People hate me as a successful person, though, no thanks to my family later on, in strong ways. We used to be like those families. Just don’t look at my mom’s race etc. A lot of families are accepted with Asian moms, or dads, even by Germans and in Germany, still. Huh?

I posted this in the 4th column as “Supremacy Surprise.”

Germany likes Americans who are “good” as in “the good stuff” but not as into being European or German. They think that Americans who are into being European or German, for whatever incentive, are just small versions of them with nothing to offer, in the end-

Anyone?

I took a shower.

I have “The Nutcracker” on my laptop.

My mom did ballet. I feel I’m good at it but no one notices. I didn’t get to do it growing up. I did do it a little and in college, as a declared minor with experience and capability/potential.

I’m doing violin for church and practiced for church maybe an hour today.

I’m thinking of making spaghetti and frozen meatballs, very easy.

I got some fresh air from a walk. I want to practice violin. Work at 3 PM, wake up at 9 AM. Work again Saturday sometime after 10 AM.

3-7 Yyes! Black Friday!!!

I’m practicing for church. I did the warm up type stuff for like 15 minutes or so. I finally had labeled all the songs I knew or liked in the hymnal, writing the page numbers and song titles on the labels, maybe 200, some tunes repeating. I took a break after working on 2 of these songs. I did play a little classical but not much, after the warm up type stuff. I took a break because I was getting tired not wanting to think or whatever.

I just had my Honey Nut Cheerios and iced coffee.

I am manned for before and after work with Lunchables: pizza and nachos, as well as cheese and nuts etc.

Cleveland is a spoilsport, think they don’t have what it takes and so make a scene before they back down. I need to get outta here, maybe Florida again, Southeastern Florida.

It sounds like a lot of what I experience in Cleveland is being intruded by people who won’t give me a chance.

No one ever said they wanted these mean people in Cleveland to get in my business, anyway.

People think I’m not that good, but I don’t have problems.

It’s what I don’t get that’s missing, not something wrong with me.

People who have been inflicting pain on me for things they are to learn in the future that I already know … that is not right.

I know what Early Generation X did and does. Other people put on a pretty show, but everyone looks at me and makes it so it doesn’t work out for me, anymore.

Before you get to get extremely stimulated like others, there are intermediary steps, which are either mandatory or optional.

Classical Music

I am born in 1986 and know about Late Generation X and our generation with parents and guardian generations etc.

It’s already 9:41 PM, and I showered and am in bed!

I was waiting for groceries on this busy day before Thanksgiving, delivery with Instacart+. I feel safe and secure more to eat before and after work and have food for the rest of the month. My younger brother is ignoring me when I ask for savings, too, since I thought I’d already have a higher paying job. I will now, though. I’m finishing up helping with Santa photos for $10/hour and then plan to get another job while I get licensed to sell part time, should make $100K selling to 4 people a week. I already am good at repeating selling photos from Santa, got better at it as time went on. I am trying to work at Popeye’s or McDonald’s, only 1 bus away form home, after this, but I wasn’t table to do an interview with things to do. This job is over December 24th. 1 month left of fun! though it’s stressful living far away and not having much money to worry about at the same time.

So, I did laundry with a new washer, a small one for my studio apartment. It’s quite small. I had to dry my stuff in the apartment laundry room in 2 cycles. I didn’t wait in the room, anymore, after the 1st cycle. It’s so overbearing. I was tired and hungry and uptight.

Now, day is done. My Instacart came like 3 hours late, since it’s Thanksgiving.

Let’s pray I get through this, can’t believe my younger brother thinks he can deal my savings. He already wanted me out of the house when my parents died. People have intervened my peace and serenity socially living far away, too.

I needed to dry my laundry a 2nd time it was so wet or something.

I’m cooking my burgers.

Why don’t people go “line up” for Hollywood and “mind their own business?”

I’m in a developmental stage late, still young.

I’m tired and hungry, and, therefore, I do not like being in here, I feel physically drained and thirsty. I’m looking forward to my cherry Coca Cola; I got a 2 liter.

Do you think I’ll ever get my “big break?”

All this mess won’t help.

I’m in the laundry room drying my clothes. 49 minutes total, 45 left.

I think I’m gonna dry my clothes tonight. I still have a little left to wash, could do it tomorrow. Work Friday and Saturday!

My order started!

They tear you down if your schools were bad but you did good in them.

I am not working taking 2 buses. Only 1. Maybe Popeye’s or McDonald’s, but I was unable to schedule an interview..

Plus, I have the sales job to get certified for, officially hired! $100K/year part time I was told, 4 families a week! I already sell Santa photos sometime and know what it’s like to repeat the same thing, to the different customers.

Up and down.

It actually went back to 7:30 PM.

It keeps being bumped later.

The other washer broke, but I can’t get a hold of them, have to contact Amazon, but how about a lunch?

I guess I’ll monitor my clothes and dry them by tomorrow maybe in the apartment dryer, the socks at least and probably the regular clothes. I’m hanging my clothes for work.

I can reschedule, but it runs til 11 PM, I think I read.

I’m washing more clothes.

I was on the phone about my May benefits, it may take 2 months from late October, so maybe by the New Year 2023..

7 PM now

Now, my grocery order may not come til 6:30 PM, postponed since like 4:30 or 5 PM.

It’s pretty nifty, though the instructions, like many, were incomplete..

I’m making hamburgers tonight. Instacart+ from Aldi.

Do you rely on me as an excuse for your racism?

I can spend $114 the rest of November, 8 days if you include today.

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Professionally? For something like violin or whatever you really need to have started probably no later than 7 or 8 years old.

People want to know “what’s good.”

No one’s too old to play music as a hobby.

Why hobble along, like a life dragging chains?

It’s literally a battle between good and evil, good being Early Baby Boomers and their “faithful subjects” and bad being Late Baby Boomers and their rebellious “minions” who won’t comply with older generations like Early Baby Boomers included.

I edited the posts I featured, took down some.

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It’s very true that highly accomplished musicians, singers, and whatnot enjoy feedback from people who don’t play.

What highly accomplished musicians, singers, and whatnot don’t enjoy is people who want to break into the field chasing after or clinging to them. It’s a mystery, and it’s history.

When a music professor told me to go away, I didn’t and felt confused being rejected in college, and she said I was worthless. It makes me suspicious because I was just kicked out of singing, Vocal and Instrumental Music Education, and piano as a major instrument. That means they were up to no good. The Music Education teacher said I was “sneaky,” like it was a coveted program in which I was unwelcome. I don’t know for sure if they knew I loved my programs and the school. They said I was welcome to try another post secondary school, like another one in the same city. However, their program was “cuter.” No one seemed to talk about it or have to think about it much at my level. My roommate pitched in that it was mean if [after I was accepted] for a year that their turning me down was wrong. She was an Education major, and they closed the Education program, when we were even encouraged, my class year in general, to minor in Secondary Education. I think what would be appealing would be to get a Bachelor’s in directing for film. I know sometimes they have big people in the business cater to children in the field, as well. In fact, I decided the other day I should move to L.A. It would be a dream to move there when I was in New Orleans. I came home to Orlando, where we moved after Hurricane Katrina destroyed our house and New Orleans. I thought Disney filmed there, but they didn’t film things like Pirates of the Caribbean there!

I think music as a skill or connection is an experience of transcendence to other forms of reality.

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In real life.

So, like you must know by now, I did piano. My college had an afterschool program for children who played piano like 4 or 5 days a week. My private instructor actually taught it, and piano was my major instrument, along with doing other things like taking private organ lessons.

I feel it’s become accepted that I’ve transitioned as a lost soul or something or other from piano to violin, as violin is considered more specific musically and more collaborative, in the making.

My piano instructor in college taught me more about perfecting simple technic/technique and things like how a line in piano is the same as an instrument in the orchestra or band playing the same song. Basically.

My organ teacher in high school sure beat around the bush for that choir all those years and is there doing it to this day, retired from teaching Talented Music in public schools in the area. Anyway, she taught me how to perfect my legato on organ or rather to eliminate it and be more detached. I did my pedal exercises faithfully, and I was all good and well, “up to snuff,” as I like to say. She hinted me in on things and I was a whiz to pick it up. I got good at trills by the time I came back from college a year.

I wanted to take Music Appreciation in college when I was still in high school but only could take Art Appreciation. My dad kept boasting about Beethoven’s 5th, “dun dun dun dun” having taken Music Appreciation. I took music history courses etc. myself as a music major and did speeches on it. I also did some learning of Music Education and even got to use it as one of my majors in music for awhile.

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My friend said the same thing about Johnny Depp as Willy Wonka, was a Pirates fan but didn’t see this.

I’m creeped out by the outcome and effect in Hollywood. I’m impressed with its impact on the world in 2005.

I was mostly drawn in by Johnny Depp’s acting, pretty much, and interesting co-acting response. It was quite drawn in by its quality and quantity. All that experience in acting built up. He lived the dream, and now that dream is gone, Hollywood, France, but I wouldn’t wanna be him and get tattoos and practice maybe substance abuse.

Johnny Depp does seem to believe in older people and normal people who are popular. He doesn’t think he’s better than everyone else and like no one deserves anything. I wonder how long that will last.

I had a friend who seemed to want to visit with me after I moved and must have changed her mind. Okay, but why is this still a problem on my part or is it? People seem to be haunting me about it.

Late Baby Boomers making Generation X feel bad and making them mean to Generation XY.